I have had many fuck this shit moments in the last two months, since putting together an offering that I have felt called to since The Women's Health and Fitness Summit in September. I have had to do a lot of healing emotionally and spirituality to release and shift, to ensure that I was in a heart space to be able to offer such a supportive, intense, intimate and connected service for mamas - I couldn't have my own shit getting in the way.
I really had to call bullshit on a lot of beliefs I was holding onto that have been holding me back from being able to serve on a deeper level.
So safe to say I feel empowered, clear and ready to roll - I am a force to be reckoned with right now.
Being 28 weeks pregnant with my second baby, that is growing on top of my prolapses has brought a lot of emotional trauma that needed to be dealt with to the surface - not a bad thing.
One of which was the fear of vaginally birthing again, after suffering prolapse after the first birth.
I opted from the beginning to go with a private ob, to ensure that I was able to trust and know I was supported with my decisions going into my second birth. He listened to my fears, gave me my options and answered all of my questions. I feel in safe and supportive hands.
I have had to see the public system midwife and obs in the time that I have not been able to see my private ob.
My experience with the public ob over the last couple of days, has gotten me really well, pissed off. Walking away from that appointment feeling very disempowered after almost being scoffed at, like my attempts at preventing further damage to my body was ridiculous, was pretty disturbing to me. Regardless of whether this was the intent of the clinical professional (who I may have had as my ob trusting my body, my life and my little lady's life with), that is how I felt. I do not doubt the ability, skill set or many many years of experience and study that obs go through to be able to help us bring life into this world, but if I did not have the support, knowledge or tools that I do myself, I would have walked away from that appointment distressed and anxious.
Sure, maybe it was the way I needed to feel in order to write this divine message for YOU, chances are if I am feeling like this there is a message that needs to be delivered, whatever the reason here is the moral of the story.
"NEWSFLASH : We are the ones who have to live with our bodies and the outcomes of birth our whole lives - so we deserve to be informed + feel safe enough to make choices that are right for OUR body".
- So if I have a question, I want to feel safe enough to ask it!
- If I have fears, I want to feel safe enough to bring them up and have the options talked through with me.
- If I have a dysfunction I would have loved to been asked questions about the emotional impact it has had on me, how it affects my daily life and my chosen profession and what options for birthing are available to me.
- I don't want your opinions unless I ask for them.
- I want to know what other professionals I can speak to, to ensure I have the right support team around me to ensure I get the care that I need.
SO i'm sorry but FUCK THIS SHIT! Mamas we deserve to feel in control of our birth, and we are entitled to know all options in order to make the most informed decision at the time.
There are options for you, if you do not feel like you are empowered enough or safe enough to ask questions get your squad around you.
Become a force to be reckoned with - it is your body.
Take your partner or support person, find a Doula, get your women's health physiotherapist write a letter for you, find a mama mentor that can help you find the answers you are looking for and hook a sister up with the right professional for you, what emotional and spiritual releases you need before birth OR after birth if needed!
Sure, things happen out of our control but an empowered mama will know who to turn to in order to heal, release and see the opportunities to grow + kick arse.
Time to reclaim that inner divine mama power and make a choices that are informed for your body.
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Watch the video I shared with my mama tribe.